What is PTSD?

Ahh, the million dollar question!

PTSD is Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It's an irrepairable mental disorder. It's different in everybody, but for me, it causes majoy memory dysfunction, depression, extreme lack of interest in things I normally love, anxeity, loss of appetite, irratability, nightmares, inability to sleep, flashbacks, and feeling emotionally numb. Yup, all at once.

PTSD is caused by witnessing, or experiencing something so traumatic, and insaine, your brain can't cope with it. Like, being shot at, or raped, or witnessing the twin towers collapse (in person), or even more so, being a survivor of the colapse! Being in a war is a huge contributor, watching your friends die next to you, losing body parts, or killing others is a horrific experience for anyone to go through. And your trained to suck it up in the military, so you bottle it all inside, and days, months, or even years (as in my case) later, it comes busting out!

I thank God for my family & friends who understand about what I have gone through, and what I am going through now. I wouldn't be able to survive with out their support! Sorry I missed my post yesterday (told you I'd forget!). But in my defense, it was my big sisters birthday, so I had other things on my mind! We got to celebrate with her today over lunch, too. I love you, big sis!